The popular vote (2nd Try)

bah I was half way threw this post and the stupid computer rebooted of its own free will. I really have retyping. Anyway I wrote this poem on the 4th and thought it would be kewl to do a whole squidoo lens around the poem. but the poem had to do with those left at home when the Armed Forces go to war. I also had stats listed of casualties from the war of Independence to whats happened so far up to today. Well when I hit publish it got a little grey - mark basically meaning it wasn't going to be showcased like the other lens because it wasn't popular at this moment. Though i tried many ways to redo the page to get it to come up green it just wouldn't happen so I deleted the whole lens and put the poem with the rest of them that I have put on my poetry blog. if you want to read it.

It was like a tribute. It seems I am making it a habit to create things that the "establishment" doesn't like and I am getting a lot of no we can't allow that. I don't even swear its just my opinion of how things are going. I set up a word press. Had it all nice and done up to show off the click programs that i am part of and they called it advertising and pulled my blog. So i deleted everything and left a message in the middle of the page saying this has moved to blah blah.com as word press my support freedom of speech but they dont support free enterprise. I haven't been back so i dont know if its still there like that. Most likely not I doubt word press would be thrilled with my comment.

I am working on crafting another poem that started to birth itself earlier this morning but i dont have it all set in my head yet so when it looks right I'll add it. It feels good to not be over reacting to everything anymore. now i just over react to things like a normal person lol well as normal as i will ever get anyway. I still want to put my old stuff in but its so damn depressing to reread and trying to figure out what the hell i wrote in the first place takes up a lot of time. i make Dr's handwriting look like a finely crafted work of calligraphy.

It feels a little odd actually having more the one entry a month but i guess i am getting to a point where i really need to express myself and all my friends and family have heard my stories, my crankiness and my episodes. they have held my hand and my head a few times and right now i just need to communicate to give my thoughts somewhere else to rest rather then keeping them all tied up in my head where i have enough things to deal with. if my stories and my history helps even one person to be able to help themselves or informs them so they can move on to the next step of healing then i have accomplished my goal. I have been up all night due to another freaky schedule mess up and the fact i have been drinking coffee since 4pm and i haven't had any in like 2 months so i got a bit of a coffee buzz going and its been fighting with my help me to sleep meds. So since i have stayed up this long i can take my morning pills and get some rest without worrying about taking them on time :)