So far this year

Well the van still isn't fixed. Money kinda goes faster then intended and to other projects and the van seems to keep drawing the short stick in this particular Merry-go-Round. I am just coming out of a 6 month depression. That is the longest time I can remember being that depressed. I really can't remember much but I know I wasn't much fun and I didn't have much fun.

I am on another new anti-depressant. This one appears to be working. I have been on it about a month and I take it at night because it puts me to sleep. Since taking it I have been actually sleeping and sleeping well as it has also helped in a big way to reduce my chronic pain. I can't begin to describe what it is like to not be in constant pain. It use to be even just laying down hurt now I can actually spend time with (what in my case is) a bearable amount of pain.

You would be surprised just how much pain can effect your mental attitude to life. I am way less cranky and its been notice by those around me. I also have a much more positive outlook, though I doubt I will ever be one of those "cheery people" I am at least finding a middle ground.

This wonder drug is called Cymbalta I am sure many have seen the commercial. I can tell you that the commercial does not exaggerate like most do this medication actually works and I would recommend it to anyone with depression or bipolar type conditions. I also would recommend it to people in chronic pain.

As a side point, I found out that I am in love. Its the first time I have ever really been "in" love and not just codependent. I am not going to say much as I am afraid to jinx it but it is a really wonderful feeling and I could get addicted to being happy.

Well that's really all that's been going on Oh except that I am going to miss my 20 year high school reunion due to the van not being fixed but oh well. Its mainly just a reason for everyone to get together and see how many of their former class mates look older then they do and feel better about themselves. LOL Going to be adding some old stuff some point soon as soon as I can dig out the old journals. talk to you all soon. Happy 4th of July